Just plain Left Behind....

Lately it really feels like I've just been absolutely left behind. Left behind in everything. I have to leave stuff here and go be with my family too, so I know that i'm not the only one in the world who feels like this.  Its still hard. Really hard. Things start festering when I hold them all inside. People notice. They aren't stupid. It's like....while everyone else in this world is moving forward, I seem to be just taking 10 steps back. Not cool. Left behind.

So...on my way home from church tonight, I had this overwhelming feeling that I had just lost my best friend. I realized how super heavy my heart was from just not being able to get stuff out. :/ Awful. As I was getting off the interstate, "Enough" by Barlow Girl came on. HE'S enough for me!!!! HE'S all I need. As soon as I heard it, tears exploded out of my eyes! It's hard to comprehend sometimes, but I know that people here are human. But no matter what time it is, or what I have to just get off my chest, HE'S the only one I can go to with comfort, He'll never tell a soul. In turn, I get the answers I NEED to hear, not the ones i want. HE'S ENOUGH. Period. :)

I suppose this really doesn't do a thing for my trust issue. ;) But, for now, and until I find another human being that I can confide completely and fully in, HE'S the ONLY One I'll go to. :)

I LOVE MUSIC. I love how it speaks to me. :)