Matthew 5:23-24

so. today. i did something i thought i would never do. in july 2010, an all-out war broke out between an old friend and her family and me. feelings were hurt. things just blew up and turned to ash. i left it all there. ash. i moved on (or so i thought) with my life. got new friends. a new church. an amazing boyfriend. something still stood in the way. the underlying problem was that i didn't do as God commands us to do...

23-Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, 24-leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift.

so i prayed. and i prayed hard. rekindling that fire and all those bad feelings people have for you. its not really something i'd like to do. i wanted to just leave it. leave it all there. and never go back.

God said no. He burdened me to the point of 'i have no other option'. and that stinks. i know God is ALWAYS right. i know that He always gets His way, too.

so. i did it. i sent an email. not one of accusation. not one of 'my feelings are hurt'. but one of 'please forgive me for leading you in the wrong direction'.

now i sit. now i wait. pride aside, i hope i'm forgiven. for my sake and for her's.
forgiveness...don't underestimate the power of it.

maybe she'll write back. but she might not.

We'll see....  :)